Well anyways, since February I had been going to boot camp, eating pretty well (mostly all gluten free), and feeling happy and energetic. This was a long stretch of success for me. Usually I get into a routine at that lasts about a month. But this time I was losing weight, I had lost over 20 lbs and felt so close to my goal. I really thought I had it this time.
This is where balance comes in. I think it's important that I don't deprive myself of something if I am craving it because I have learned that always makes me want it more and then that leads to more ''binging'' on whatever that food item might be. But sometimes, giving into that craving means I would get one bite of that ''bad food'' and I would just not be able to stop...then I would quit eating well all together because I had already ruined my diet. So silly, but that's how I think sometimes.
So for about the last month (and especially since Jason finished the bar exam), I have slowly fallen off my gluten free track. Having a little here or there has lead to more and more eating of it. Jason and I have been going out to eat to finally enjoy having some time together...and it's not always easy to make the healthy choices...especially after some cocktails! The strange thing is I haven't really gotten stomach aches or stopped exercising. This of course lead me to believe I could still eat it. I know I am not allergic to it, but I know how I always end up feeling once it's worked back into my life all the way. Bloated. My cheeks feel chubbier, my clothes fit a bit tighter, and I just feel like I am dragging.
And to top it off, when we went to Florida I didn't exercise at all because it was wicked hot outside, so in the last week or two I feel like I haven't exercised as much as I should either. I feel pretty shitty...and I did it to myself. I am sure I am not alone but it's kind of embarrassing to admit too.
This all comes down to today. I signed myself up for boot camp and was planning a trip to the grocery store. I keep telling myself all is not lost and all I need to do is hop back on the wagon and I will be feeling good again in no time. It's just that first hop that really sucks.
Balance to me means, buying those healthy groceries, having lots of options available in the fridge and cupboards, making exercise a priority, and also enjoying life and not beating myself up too much when I get off track. Even if that time off track was longer than I wanted.
Bootcamp was great today, I saw two girls (sisters) I have gotten to know through bootcamp and they were so motivating to me today. It was just what I needed! (Thanks ladies!) And then I went to the grocery store and stocked up on tons of healthy foods. This always feels good too. You know, it's not always easy to slide right past the corn dogs and taquitos...as nasty as that may sound to some people...that junk is tasty sometimes! Especially when it's what you grew up eating. I was a picky child : )
But I know how good I feel when I stay away from processed foods...I just need to accept that it may never be easy and I will have weak moments, and that's ok. As long as I keep my lifestyle healthy most of the time...that's all I can ask of myself.
I always see people who have blogs about living ''clean'' lifestyles. This really intrigues me and it generally seems that once they start eating that way they never turn back. I wish I could say the same for myself, and maybe someday I will reach that point...but for now I am ok with being flawed and will learn as I go!
When I got home from the grocery store, I went out to my vegetable garden and had quite a nice yield today. Look how fresh and delicious!! There will have to be salads with dinner tonight!
|Let me know if you need some banana peppers because they are very plentiful this year!|
|The name of the app : )|
|One of the pages of recipes : ) Yum yum!|
Bri's Peachberry Smoothie
1/2 cup frozen peaches
1/2 cup frozen blackberries
1/2 cup milk
1/2 scoop unflavored protein powder
1/2 cup full fat plain yogurt
2 tbsp agave nectar
1 tbsp flax seeds
The app really helped inspire some good smoothie ideas. I never follow the directions and always like to change things up, but it's a good starting point! Also, I use the Magic Bullet to blend my smoothies, it's good for single servings and much easier to clean up compared to a big blender in my opinion.
My plan is to have a great, healthy meal tomorrow with a recipe to share on the blog. Wish me luck!
Oh and one more thing...my good pal Louie hung out with my all afternoon as I cleaned and put away the groceries. He is so cute and I love his big blue eyes!